Hola  people!

yeah, I'm bored. it's 2:30 in the morning. And I can't get this girl outta my head!! but it's okay, I have aids. anyways, I jus thought I'd tell everyone back at home that I miss them. especially felicia. she makes me smile big . And I wanna squeeze her cuz she's soo cute!!! anyways, school starts in 2 days. I'm excited, yet kinda jus worried about what I should do about money. But things will work out. anyways, I'll hit you guys up later~

much love~ shane

Hey world. Yeah, I know you hate me right now, but it's okay. I'm stronger than you think. you can take away my car, my friends, and even some of my family, but you will not break me. the good Lord watches over me and I have nothing to fear~

I think I have lost my sanity. I really do. so much stress and everything put on my shoulders.... I jus might be in that denial stage. but I'm still the same ol' shane. it's a front. and I don't know who to talk to. so I keep to myself about it. anyways, life is going downhill. especially with grandma gone. maybe thats it... I do miss her. I think i've been doing bad because of her absence. we have a date party tonite and it's a western theme. so I'm going as a fuckin real indian!! in a fuckin loin cloth and a head dress!! ha, jus kidding. but what if I did... well i'm out people!!

much love~shane

Fuckin drama. why me..? life sucks right now. can't wait til tonite. I'm not myself anymore. I'm missing something...

hello my people~

it's been too long... I've been so busy. don't know what i'm gonna do for my birthday... It's this friday!! I'll be the big 20!!! word my dizzles. anyways, I expect all of my friends to buy me something for my b-day. If you don't, I'm gonna knock heads!!! .....anyways, I'm really getting pissed at the one and only person again. it's like I can't be friends with her or even try to work things out. oh, and it's okay for her to call me, but I can't call her. And then she has the audacity to tell my cousin, her "boyfriend," not to talk to me!! nigga, I introduced those two together! and lately, I'm kinda jus seeing that he is a great man for her, but she's the one with all the drama. And surprise, I seem to be the one who was at the beginning of it. Fuck it, I just wanted to be friends, but it's too late for that. If she's gonna cross the line like that, then there is no room for friendship. I believe we even discussed that we would be friends, but now she's like "I can't talk to you." Friendship shouldn't involve drama. and if it does, the drama shouldn't be about the friendship. But I tell you, no one is gonna make her laugh the way I used to. I deleted her number from my phone, but I still know it by memory. It's hard to get rid of shit like that outta ya head. I every once in a while thought of her and how we used to like each other. Now I don't want anything to do with her. I've always kept the door of friendship open to her, (and maybe something else ;) ) but it's out the door now. they say if you love something, let it go. well, I'm not letting it go, I'm kickin it out the door! Yeah, she called me to tell me happy birthday, but when I told her that I was kickin it with her boyfriend, she hung up to call him and bitch him out jus cuz I was with him!! FUCK THAT SHIT!!! She's gonna call me and try to be a friend, but she's gonna get mad at her boy for BEING a friend. BITCH PLEASE. But what's impressive is that my nigga took up for me and they almost broke up they shit. what's bad is that it would have been over me. I do see that he treats her good, and he might even deserve better. but I have realized that she isn't worth it. she WAS, but she ain't shit anymore. not to me. motherfucker, I just might go over the top on her, so I'm stopping now.  I'll hit you guys up later~

shane